Todays do come
Todays do come, the like of which helps you remember that this little life has lots of ups too. Todays do come I will need to remind myself on the other days, watching a small child immerse himself in the lavendar in my front garden, it, towering over him, I wish i had that experience of walking under lavendar plants and looking up to them in their wonderful buzzing scent. I wanted to know what he was thinking as he stroked the plant and tugged to free it. Those moments of childhood innocence that I hope my children remember so dearly, the nature we immersed in, the camping, cycling, the wild they had at the feet of their wild mother. I had reason to text my ex-mother-in-kind-of-law today and it was the first time I wondered truly what she thought of me, aren't I lucky to never have particularly cared. I know that's not normal, normal women are looking for their approval, I never did. I would not have known how to. Good people, just not my type of people. Them of clean floors and polished sides, me of children jumping on sofas with matted hair. Todays do come and todays bring less war - for sure.